Greenhorn.

I never really saw myself as a writer, I sometimes fantasize about being one, 💭🙈that’s as far as it goes, however, I like to put things down because it’s what I gather great writers do.🤓 Why I don’t see myself in that light may be one of many reasons 🤔

May be I fear my writing will not be as great, or someone will suggest i should have used these words or described it like that. 🙄🤥

There are awesome writers and I don’t even come close. 😔

Don’t get me wrong, I don’t lack self-esteem, 🌚 because I am Geenat!

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The thing is, I do applaud a good write-up, I recently just finished one of Ted Dekkers series Black, Red, white and Blink Of An Eye all I could say to myself, Is… God when? 😩 🤯

I presume after Trevor Noah’s Born a crime, which was one of my fastest read,👏🏽 wordsmiths like these should be treated like an endangered specie, 😶 they pull you at your wit’s end, take your mind on a voyage in such a hurry, it exciting, it’s like a high I find amusing,🙌🏽 it gladdens my heart. 😋 ❤️

How exciting it would be to have a one on one with someone like Chimamanda Adichie and tell her half of her story in Americanh or That Thing Around Your Neck happened to me,😁 it’s so amazing how I feel I somehow know her, only because I read some of her books, 🤦🏽‍♀️ I will share my wonder and excitement on how she explained it so well, I can tell it to anyone like a movie and the person will quickly comprehend.😉

There are days in this ending month of March where I notice a thing, an event, and Say to myself "this will make a great story" if I should write it.😞
I could write from the many interviews I attended with the kind of drama they came with, maybe write about the two horrible bosses I have had, 😟 the complicated relationship I was involved in, 🙄 the kind of thoughts the teenagers in my church bestowed upon me,😘 how life is, living with my sister (stress and love), the kind of friends I have (creatives), my dramatic trip to Kogi,😁 or about the Nigerian politics. 😔.

It’s a lot, someone will suggest i start a blog, but I think there should be a real reason for me to go into it, if I wanna have a blog, I should be able to offer some kind of solution or hope and not just write. 💁🏽‍♀️😶

I could hear someone’s opinion on a matter and I could think of a quick story in my head around it I may not provide a solution, instead, I will try to think of where the person is from and how life has been for s/he. 🧠 🤦🏽‍♀️

In all of these, I have resolved to push myself to write more, write anything, something, fiction, facts, everything. until I become a recognized writer. 😁🙌🏽👀

I know it’s been two years I published anything on medium, 😞it’s not like I have not written anything, but I have, reasons are I have not been able to bring myself to publish any, but not anymore,🌚 I started by browbeating my friend to make me write something within a deadline even though he failed I forgave him. 😒 🙄😶.

M ypoint is that, this way I can whip out a quick write up, a short story, or something in-depth. 😐

So to my sunken bikini bottom writing level, I say goodbye, 🙋🏽‍♀️ I now consider me a writer,👩🏽‍🏫🤸🏽‍♂️ so far the great Shonda Rhimes said: "if you think 💭 of writing then you are a writer". 🙃

Thanks for reading ❤️💯💋👏🏽